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[1.] On the outside, you're not the same kid anymore. You've been through too much lately. But deep down, there will always be a part of you that rejects reality.

[2.] Driving all night the day's all a blur
been out here so long keep thinking about her
she said she'd wait for me but nothing's for sure
and every song i hear reminds me of her -- Bensin [awesome band]

[3.] I can't eat anything without shoving my hands down my throat. And I refuse to meet the world without smearing on makeup, with my blinding my eyes. Do you know what it's like to feel ugly all the time?

[4.] I thought about telling you this, in the quiet of the car with only the rain drumming overhead. But there are some things you don't have to say. Some things are just understood.

[5.] Sometimes we need to stop analyzing the past, stop planning the future,  stop figuring out precisely how we feel, stop deciding exactly what we want, and just see what happens.

[6.] When a masterpiece is created it takes more then hours of brush strokes, it takes years of experiences of let downs. Failures are just like this masterpeice though.  It's not just that one decision that defines you, it years of mistakes. But just like that masterpiece, there's beauty in every part.

[7.] wait for me another year or two,
i will graduate and marry you.
you roll the number and i buy the lumber,
to build a house up on an oregon hill.

[8.] In the morning,
when you rise up from the ashes of your cigarette butts
and from the coals that have been there too long
ease down the road where you feel like you belong
following directions that you heard in a song
ease down the road where your sun shines strong
guided down, guided down by the lighthouse song.

[9.] Please don't be upset at this portriat that I paint, it may be a little biased, but at least I spelled your name right.

[10.] finally, a moment of enlightenment. a fleeting glimpse of rationale.

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[1.] && in every book, there's this girl, and this boy.
they fall in love, they don't want to admit it.
they go out, they love to be together.
they get in a fight, being apart tears them to pieces,
they confess true love, they've never been happier.
how come authors never tell the truth?

[2.] Buried under the stars,
I told you how I missed this.
Missed you.
Missed us.
I would steal the stars,
just for you to smile without faking.
You smiled.
You laughed.
And we danced.

[3.] and your slowly shaking finger tips show that your scared like me.
so let's pretend we're alone and I know you may be scared and
I no we're unprepared but I don't care.

[4.] you come over unannounced.
silence broken by your voice in the dark.
i need you here tonight
just like the ocean needs the waves.

[5.] Just in case they're wondering, They've got us pinned terribly. They don't believe our love is real, 'Cause they don't know how real love feels.

[6.] something good always comes out of something bad and when your down you can probably only go up. you can't always control everything and it's only going to happen if it was meant too.

[7.] I don't want to ever feel like I did that day.
Take me to the place I love, take me all the way.

[8.] I’ve got a feeling it’s not the safest place to start.
This heavy breathing, it seems,
we’re better off breaking hearts.
From the beginning, dulled down and lost with all its charm.

[9.] there’s a guy outside your window
with a cracked guitar
And a broken heart
But I don’t think you hear him, though
I don’t think you hear him
And he’s been going where the wind blows
He’s taken shelter by your house
But you’re not coming out
my best friend says "believe"

[10.] Lately I'm alright
and lately I'm not scared
I've figured out,
that what you do to me feels like
I'm floating on air.

[1.] this ten am cup of coffee has me feeling so sophisticated.
and well, it almost makes me feel like i don't need you.
but i swear to god, i do.

[2.] so lets destroy each other,
'cause we're too cool for
love lines & soft kisses over cheap wine.
this is romance

[3.] so let's drive through the night, put your hands on my heart.
spray paint verses on a cold blue wall, write our names in the burning sand,
watch as snowflakes melt inside our hands.

[4.] all you've been asking for has been placed in front of you.
the headaches, the shaking, the boredom the boardroom brings.
you're scratching at itching brought by the spiders beneath your skin.
the answer in question is over before it begins.
hey there, sleepy smile, i see you've brought your bedroom eyes.

[5.] I deconstruct my thoughts at this piano And it's all that I can do to stay with All the things I didn't say to you Before you moved across the country And from the burning building where I lay As I watch the stars become the day

[6.] Remains swept under the rug. Red ash turned grey from being so cold for so long. You still don't get it do you. You can't leave me there.

[7.] The drive home was so cold, it feels good to get away. But you can never stay away for to long. I've been without you for months. This winter may have been warm, but my God I'm freezing.

[8.] I sat back up in my tree fort, you know that one from that Summer. And all I could remember were those "No Boys Allowed" signs. And how you were the only one I'd let in, you'd have to kiss me first though. I took down the sign.. "Please Come Back."

[9.] Sitting on our friends porch. Listening to the song we both hated, man how we hated it. I never felt so much at home, just being there with you. You were laying on the floor. And I could tell by the melody in your voice, this was your new favorite song.

[10.] I think that's what's wrong with the world; No one says what they feel. They always hold it inside. They're sad, but they don't cry. They're happy, but they don't dance or sing. They're angry, but they don't scream. Because if they do, they feel ashamed. And that's the worst feeling in the world.

[1.] At one point I was so weak;
I missed you so much & I missed what we had.
One simple song made me break down & cry.
but now I can honestly say I'm over you.
Sure, I still think about you,
but I'm not crying anymore
I'm so strong now; even though
it bugs me when I see you with other girls,
I'm finally over you.
Have a great life, stranger

[2.] I will be who I want to be,
not who you think I should.
I am going to dress my own way,
Not the way you want me to.
I am going to listen to the music
that I want to listen to; watch what
I want to watch; read what I want to read.
I will not let you break me down, because
If I'm not good enough for you, then you
Mean nothing to me

[3.] but when i look in the mirror,
i see a girl who's been through so much,
& yet, still finds a way to smile at the past.
she still loves with all her heart,
or what's left of it.
& when you see her walking in the hallway,
i can guarantee you she'll have her head up high
faking a smile just one last time.
& for all those people who try to break her,
you never will

[4.] that's the trick..
you can't care too much.
it's good to have guys like you,
but always keep them at a distance.
never give them a chance to hurt you.
kiss them, flirt with them,
keep them on a string,
but never, ever fall for one.

[5.] People say i've changed so much.
Well here's the honest truth,
I grew up and stopped letting people
push me around.
I learned that
you can't always be happy.
I accepted reality.

[6.] Haven't you heard?
The revolution's over,
Now the angers disappeared.
And the rebels are much older
And the schools and universities
Are turning out a brand new breed
Of young conservatives.

[7.] when you drop a glass or a plate on the ground,
it makes a loud crashing sound. when a window shatters,
a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall,
it makes a noise. but as for your heart, when that breaks,
it's completely silent. you would think as it's so important
it would make the loudest noise in the whole world,
or even have some sort of ceremonious sound
like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell.
but it's silent and you almost wish there was a noise
to distract you from the pain.

[8.] everything I do fails...
I wish on stars, wish on birthday candles,
put you on my Christmas list, throw coins in
fountains and make a wish, wish at 11:11.
not to mention, love you, dream about you,
and think about you every moment I can.
yet, nothing works. and as much as I want
to lose hope in all these things, I can't.
because if I stop believing then they won't
ever come true

[9.] I'm in line for the murder
first come first served
you aim from across the hall
your vision blurred
is this what you want from me
to hear me scream?

[10.] Pour yourself a drink girl, then make one for me.
We haven't even met yet, and I'm already sure that we won't.
..And I'm right back where I started.
The air in here is shaking every single nerve.
I'm trying hard to let go, but my heart, it won't let me love you.